Thank you whoever you are
My cat passed away this morning, we took him to the vets because he wasn’t eating or drinking and was in obvious pain, they did tests and learned his liver wasn’t working right but they said he would more than likely recover but they had to keep him overnight. He had all kinds of tests done, iv’s sticking in him, seeing such a strong and humble cat so vulnerable broke my heart; earlier I was told by my mom that he had trouble breathing this morning, and ended up going into cardiac arrest. They tried cpr but he was already gone..
I’ve had him since I was 8 years old. He came into my life the same time one of the most traumatic things happened to me, I loved him so deeply. At the same time he was born, a pure white cat from two black cats, my cousins came to live with me because my aunt and uncle went to prison from drug abuse. During the three years that they were there, I developed depression, eating disorders and ended up hurting myself over the things I endured. See, before they lived with me one of them had raped me for the first time in his treehouse in his backyard with everyone just down below us. I remember it so vividly even though I was only 8 years old. But once they lived with me, it became every night, every car ride, sitting at the dinner table, in the pool, when my parents were gone it was the worst. But my parents not once realized what was happening to me, how I missed almost a whole year of school because my anxiety got so bad, how I hated myself more than anything, how I worried I would have a baby at the age of 9 because I didn’t know enough to know better, how by the time I was twelve I began to throw up my meals, refuse to eat and carve my skin until I couldn’t feel him inside of me anymore. But my cat noticed, he would lay against me when I cried myself to sleep, he was protective and loving and so selfless. He helped me fight my battles, he was a great warrior that will always have a special place in my heart.
This is a lot of personal info, I may end up deleting it